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Then as she slows down, the young river begins to notice the beautiful clouds reflected in her water. They are of different colours and shapes floating in the sky, and they seem to be free go anywhere they please.
Wanting to be like a cloud, she begins to chase after the clouds, one after another.
"I am not happy as a river. I want to be like you, or I shall suffer. Life is really not worth living."
So the river begins to play the game. She chases after clouds. She learns to laugh and cry.
But the clouds do not stay in one place for very long. "They reflect themselves in my water but then they leave. No cloud seems to be faithful.
"Every cloud I know has left me. No cloud has ever brought me satisfaction or happiness. I hate their betrayal."
The excitement of chasing after clouds is not worth the suffering and despair.
One afternoon, a strong wind carried all the clouds away. The sky became desperately empty. There were no more clouds to chase after. Life became empty for the river. She was so lonely she didnt want to live anymore.
But how could a river die? From something you become nothing? From someone, you become no one? Is it possible?
During the night, the river went back to herself. She could not sleep. She listened to her own cries, the lapping of her water against the shore. This was the first time she had ever listened deeply to herself and, in doing so, she discovered something very important.
Her water was made of clouds. She had been chasing after clouds and she did not know that clouds were her own nature. The river realised that the object of her search was within her. She touched peace.
Suddenly she could stop. She no longer felt the need to run after something outside herself. She was already what she wanted to become. The peace she experienced was truly gratifying and brought her a deep rest, a deep sleep.
When the river woke up the next morning, she discovered something new and wonderful reflected in her water - the blue sky.
"How deep it is, how calm. The sky is immense, stable, welcoming, and utterly free."
It seemed impossible to believe that this was the first time the river ever reflected the sky in her water. But that is true, because in the past, she was interested only in the clouds, and she never paid attention to the sky.
No cloud could ever leave the sky. She knew that the clouds were there, hidden somewhere in the blue sky. The sky must contain within itself all the clouds and all the waters. Clouds seem impermanent but the sky is always there as the faithful home of all the clouds.
Touching the sky, the river touched stability. She touched the ultimate.
In the past, she had only touched the coming, going, being, and non-being of the clouds. Now she was able to touch the home of all coming, going, being, and non-being. No one could take the sky out of her water anymore.
How wonderful it was to stop and touch. The stopping and touching brought her true stability and peace. She had arrived home.
That afternoon, the wind ceased to blow. The clouds came back one by one. The river had become wise. She was able to welcome each cloud with a smile.
The clouds of many colours and shapes seemed to be the same but then again they were no longer the same for the river. She did not feel the need to possess or chase after any particular cloud. She smiled to each cloud with equanimity and loving kindness. She enjoyed their reflections in her water. But when they drifted away, the river did not feel deserted. She waved to them, saying: "Goodbye. Have a nice journey."
She was no longer bound to any of the clouds.
The day was a happy one. That night, when the river calmly opened up her heart to the sky, she received the most wonderful image ever reflected in her water - a beautiful full moon, a moon so bright, refreshing, smiling. All space seemed to be there for the enjoyment of the moon, and she looked utterly free. The river reflected the moon in her water and enjoyed the same freedom and happiness.
What a wonderful, festive night for everyone - the sky, clouds, moon, stars and water. In the boundless space, sky, clouds, moon, stars and water enjoyed walking in meditation together. They walked with no need to arrive anywhere, not even the ocean. They could just be happy in the present moment.
The river did not need to arrive at the ocean to become water.
--- Excerpt from "Call Me By My True Names" authored by Vietnamese Zen Buddhist monk Thich Nhat Hanh
hee yup caught these 2 movies durin the wkend.. wanted to go swimming wif jia on fri but i wanted to carry my laptop back home to do some wrk and scared to leave it in the locker while we swim so canceled it... but jia dropped me a call on fri afternoon and said she had free tixs to watch pirates of the caribbean given to her by her colleague's gf's company citibank for their movies nite out so i went for it! wasnt disappointed at all cos we had free popcorn and coke on top of the free tixs plus a short thank you welcome speech fr citibank management... i felt it was a smashing and really hilarious movie even it was a tad too long at 3 hrs =)
b4 the movie we had our dinner at Big O at wheelock where i turned my head out to the waiting queue and saw one of my local potential clients queuing outside to dine wif a lady most likely his gf or wife... wah hopefully he din see me since i was wearing in such shack clothes hehehee... and then moments later daren tan the recent winner of the 2nd segment of our local superstar contest was also waiting in the Q line wif a gal... hmm he din look as tall as he seems on tv leh...
then went to suntec on sat to watch Next starring nicholas cage, julianne moore and jessica biel... a really cool thriller! one of those u-dunno-wat-will-happen-next kinda shows cos u can choose to change ur destiny!!!! hehehehheee..... juz when u tot the show ended the movie restarted again and u tot it was going to continue but the ending was left open ended ahahhahahhahaa.... din i say u can choose to change ur destiny??? hehehehe......
the reason y we went to suntec to catch the show was cos i received email saying tat there was a samsonite closed door sales solely for citibank customers at the convention area tis wkend... so i went to check it out since i need to buy a luggage bag if u rem my recent broken handle incident in malaysia... aniway i couldnt find anything in the size i wanted but i din wanna get a samsonite bag cos its still quite ex after discount... hahah got other brands there ma so i was aiming the rest... too bad made a wasted trip... we also went to teh world book fair where kel was searching for computer books but only a small section was selling those... kinda pathetic...
haiz quite tired tis wkend cos was helping kel wif his assignments besides clearing some of my wrk... even stayed at his place till 2am on sat... hmm does tat mean i can get the mech eng degree too since i noe hw to do some of the questions??? hehehehe......
hmm 2 gd movies tis wkend.. wat more could i ask for? patiently waiting for shrek, zodiac, fantastic 4, harry potter and maybe transformers and die hard 4.... its going to be a movie fiesta tis may/jun! 江美琪 - 那年的情书手上青春还剩多少
思念还有多少煎熬
偶尔清洁用过的梳子
留下了时光的线条
你的世界但愿都好
当我想起你的微笑
无意重读那年的情书
时光悠悠青春渐老
回不去的那段相知相许美好
都在发黄的信纸上闪耀
那是青春诗句记号
莫怪读了心还会跳
你是否也还记得那一段美好
也许写给你的信早扔掉
这样才好曾少你的
你已在别处都得到
yest went to a wedding dinner at rasa sentosa... 2nd time in less than half a yr hhehee... this time round it's my classmates who met in our uni class and became the 2nd couple fr our class who got married... hmm the food was exactly the same and ambience too... but was nice to see in the opening slideshow our class photo which was the place for the merging of their hearts =)
henry's known to be the class joker but he was serious in a funny way with his impromptu chinese translation of their speech which szewei carried out in eng hehe... overall it was great meetin up wif our uni classmates whom we din see in 3 full yrs (which is the period since grad).... seems like everyone's doing really well!!!
hmm was wondering why they were holding their wedding dinner on a sun nite seeing tat its so far... nw i guess i noe y! kel sent me a msg saying it was may 20, so it translates to 520 which literally sounds like i luv u in cantonese... bingo! aint tat sweet??? i tink i can say tis phrase better than the emcee leh hehehehehe.....
when i got back to wrk the next day, told my colleagues tat i went to a wedding dinner and immediately karen was telling me: hey when u get married we will hv an IFQC (our main product) table! hahahaha pengz the guest is aredi imagining a couple's wedding dinner far b4 the couple does.. hw funny!
hmm had 2 crazy days early last wk... was bz wif preparing for yet another ppt... yes u heard (or seen in tis case) me correctly... but this one is ok la cos is online one so no one can see hw nervous i look cept my colleagues... and i hv the added bonus of reading off my notes rite in front of me at my table hehehee.... well nt bad la my colleagues tink tat the webinar (aka online seminar) was quite successful...
its the great sg sale coming tis wkend!!! ladies get ur shopping shoes on!!! guys hold on and wait for the mth to be over like u wait for ur payday to come hehehehehhee.....
无悔 - 张惠妹
我静静坐在车里面
雨洒遍车外的世界
我看见后照镜里的自己
如此憔悴
你总是错了才后悔
我总是让你说抱歉
爱情在原谅和心碎之间
反复上演
你要我再给你机会
我感到无奈而疲惫
车外的雨笼罩一切
车里的我暮然发现
在不知不觉之中
已经快要走到终点
爱可以无悔可以无怨
只是我们已经无力重新再走一遍
我不想有悔不想含怨
就请你答应我在走到尽头之前说再见
我无悔我无怨
started the day wif going to an event called Asia Automotive Conference and we had 2 media passes using our mag (which means free reg)... karen was sup to be here to promote our mags since she's marketing manager now but was away on a tour to vietnam so here i was instead manning the booth and giving out mags... indian colleague kuntal looks after automotive emissions so he went in to listen to the presentations... knew i wd get bored sitting there so brought my laptop along to do some wrk..
received a msg in the morn fr my new colleague lucky who's alone in the office askin me whether it was my bday cos she received on my behalf, as quoted, "a huge lilies bouquet"!!! hahah i told her its nt my bday but my 1st yr anniversary wif bf so tats y he sent flowers ba... wow bf has sprung yet another surprise on me unknowingly and tis time so paiseh colleague knows abt it... hopefully she wun spread it to other colleagues when she sees them next wk hahaha....
after the afternoon coffee break, rushed back to the office to put back my laptop so tat i dun hv to carry it home... accountant also came in and saw the lilies and also asked whether it was my bday hahahaa..... hmm hw nice it is to hv multiple bdays in a yr so tat i nvr stop receiving flowers???? hahahhhaa i replied her and she told me better take pic wif the flowers to show evidence to kel when he becomes my future husb in case he wun give me flowers anymore after we get married!!!!!! hahhahaha wise words fr a married aunty =)
went home first to change and then met wif kel at hougang for dinner.. cos we went back to bliss restaurant where we had one of our first dates so tat place is quite memorable for us =) brought the flowers along so tat we could take pics =p lovely arent they? first time i receive lilies... haha bf was mentioning tat i am the oni gal whom he has sent many flowers to... first time he gave lilies to a gal... first time he has given more than 5 flowers in a yr... first time blah blah blah... wah shows hw "romantic" he was in the past... haha no la given tat he's a traditional and rather "egoistic" male, hv to gif him credit for this ya? can see the uncomfortable way he was holding the flowers hahaha.... but really sweet of him to do tis for me! and u muz be wondering wat i got for him in return?? well an FX briefcase cos the zipper on his current wasnt wrkg well...
after finishing our dinner and taking a stroll ard the mini lake at punggol park, we left early cos his throat wasnt feelin well... even tho the dinner was short, it din matter to me cos wats most impt is tat we stay happy tog and our relationship lasts long long! may there be many many more anniversaries to come!!!
The Power of Love - Celine Dion
The whispers in the morning
Of lovers sleeping tight
Are rolling like thunder now
As I look in your eyes
I hold on to your body
And feel each move you make
Your voice is warm and tender
A love that I could not forsake
'Cause I am your lady
And you are my man
Whenever you reach for me
I'll do all that I can
Lost is how I'm feeling
Lying in your arms
When the world outside's too much to take
That all ends when I'm with you
Even though there may be times
It seems I'm far away
Never wonder where I am
'Cause I am always by your side
'Cause I am your lady
And you are my man
Whenever you reach for me
I'll do all that I can
We're heading for something
Somewhere I've never been
Sometimes I am frightened
But I'm ready to learn
Of the power of love
The sound of your heart beating
Made it clear suddenly
The feeling that I can't go on
Is light years away
'Cause I am your lady
And you are my man
Whenever you reach for me
I'll do all that I can
We're heading for something
Somewhere I've never been
Sometimes I am frightened
But I'm ready to learn
Of the power of love
haha u tot u muz seen the topic wrongly rite? y wd i go back to NUS for a dinner esp on a sat??? ahahhaha well it's joy's bday in afew days time so alice was tinking of organizing a bbq or potluck to celebrate her bday... and also invite more pple to join in the fun and give joy a surprise party! in the end alice's mum helped cook the food so we juz needed to find a venue to eat the food.. was tinking of the beach but scared it will rain given the unpredictable weather so wanted to hv a sheltered place... alice tot of function rooms in condos and community centres but they were all fully booked due to the short notice!! hahahhaa... so in the end we chose NUS since it's free, sheltered and brought back fond memories for us anyway =)
b4 meeting up i went down to suntec area to buy a cake fr joy's fav dessert place which is bakerzin... wanted to buy a choco cake for joy but alice said tat zx also dun eat choco (me too)... when i reached there mostly choco cakes on display except for a strawberry, mango and cream cake on display... the strawberry cake was too big so i chose the mango one instead =) also dropped by delifrance to get baguette for the curry and then i was off on my way down to NUS! wah it was such a leisure sitting in the bus enjoyin the scenery and reminiscing my times at fong seng area eating prata wif my classmates after evening classes and late nite projects...
zx and wife were the first to reach and managed to "chop" a place at the pavilion at the EA area... haha congrats to them for their recent ROM cos i din noe they were officially married until tat day... aniway alice shortly arrived after us and we helped to bring in food like beehoon, curry, satay, nuggets, fishballs, sausages, fish fillets, jelly, drinks etc fr her bf yq's car... wah wat a spread rite?? ya it was really sumptious but we din manage to finish everything =) lucky the rest came in earlier than the female lead who was arriving later than the scheduled time...
it was sup to be a surprise so alice told her oni 2 of us were celebrating for her so she din noe our exact location in the NUS engineering area.. when she arrived she called me and alice went to pick her up so tat we can prepare for her arrival... haha imagine the look on her face when she saw us and the big spread... fantastic! she was sooo touched cos din noe quite wat to say in her oscar speech cept to keep repeating her thanks to alice's mum who prepared the food...
haha after havin the food it was time to sing her the bday song... when i took out the bday cake gosh it had aredi totally melted! heng i din buy the choco cake else we wd be having choco fondue hahahaha.... well even the mango fondue was not bad actually! hahaha after passing joy's bday gift and card to her we cleared up and made our way to the aircon area and started playing scrabble! wah i haven played it since i left high sch??? hahahahahah.... there were 7 of us so we had to double up in 4 teams wif the exception of ivan fighting alone.. but no prob for him la cos he won the game using his sole brain killing all of us flat!!! me and joy teamed up since the rest were couples and ok la we emerged 1st runners up so nt so paiseh for the bday gal =p haha it was really fun catching up and playing games tog... zx's wife was the photographer of the nite and took some photos so look out for them soon! hopefully our next outing at settlers cafe wd be even better! =)
also had another lunch gathering wif jia, pei, zq, ping and fen on sun at tp's crystal jade and we were 'forced' to sit at the table at the dishwashing area.. hahha but it was nt bad la since we were isolated fr the noisy crowd... wah nvr seen ping and fen since the last time jia left for the US as it was a full half a yr so it was gd to see them again! guess the next time we will meet up wd be next mth which is the mth of my bday! hehehee...
复活 - 林宇中 & 金莎
你变得像他一样沉默 偶尔也像他一样活泼
连笑声也都一样 我怎么忘 也忘不过一秒
我想要爱 却看到他离开的剎那
你将爱情带走 留我一个分手的魔咒
叫我伤得彻底不敢再妄想谁的温柔
看我的眼神闪躲 我知道你有话不能说
我该如何假装 心才不隐隐作痛
你说分手后 你(我)第一次有想爱的念头
可是眼前的是他还是你(我) 还在争夺
我懂你不想承诺 却又无法解开这魔咒
让我在你心里面复活 无数次的复活
我只要你爱我
(无数次的复活 我只要你爱我)
远远看你勇敢在心头 靠近一点却又太懦弱
不拆穿你的困惑 爱不了我(你) 至少不要难过
任何结果 我会点头 只要你快乐
yeah its a really cool show! highly recommended!!!! cant believe tat oni 2 days b4 the opening show on mayday, i looked thru so many GV cinemas and oni front seats were left for the afternoon shows at the town area cinemas!!!!!! din even bother to look at cathay, engwah or suntec... luckily i found one timing at tiong bahru tat had exactly the 4 seats i wanted rite at the back! found a restaurant to hv nice meals at juz opp the cinema called grilled... and its reasonably priced too!
haha dunno is it cos i haven been running much the past mth... usually i run 1 round around my smalltime neighborhood which is like nth i guess so i pushed myself for another round on thu which i hv managed to do oni once... but tis time things took a turn for the worse as i felt sooo giddy after the run... and when i was bathing i vomitted some of my lunch out! hahhaa lucky i was bathin so i could just puke into the toilet bowl and flush it away easily.. reminded me of tat day when i was drunk.. ok nvm dun wanna gross u out...
yep a new colleague started wrk tis mth and her name's lucky! she sup to assist me with my wrk... and i overslept on her first day! hahahhaha hw embarrassing is tat... we went to buy her a new table/chair at ikea and i slashed almost 1k on my credit card but the gd thing fr it is i can gain points =) she seems to be a very nice lady and quite promising in her wrk too... finished her major report in 2 days! can fight wif my record hahahaha.. so hopefully she wun be another karen...
haha karen was tellin me tat my indian colleague was so bored tat he msg her on sat to ask her and her hubby out.. she said she wasnt free so asked him to msg me instead which luckily he din hahahaha..... on the eve b4 mayday he also asked whether me and kel wanna go out for drinks wif him.. pengz i quickly said i was having a single date wif kel altho i was goin home cos kel wanted to study ahahhahaha... me very bad hor? he casually mentioned tat even the last single gal in the sg office is taken so he cant hv any target hahahaha..... so any gals out there wanna get to noe him? we took a gp office pic when candy was here to submit to the company internal newsletter so here's hw he looks =)
陌生人 - 蔡健雅
一朵云能载多少思念的寄托 再忽然相遇街头
当我们擦身而过 那短短一秒钟 都明白 什么都变了
一转身谁能把感慨抛在脑后 在事过境迁以后
这段情就算曾经 刻骨且铭心过 过去了 又改变什么
地球它又 公转了几周了(浓情爱恋 都已陌生了)
我不难过了 甚至真心希望你能幸福 当我了解你只能活在记忆里头
我不恨你了 甚至原谅你的残酷理由 当我了解不爱了
连回忆 都是负荷 我不难过了 甚至真心希望你能幸福
当我了解你只能活在记忆里头 我不恨你了
甚至感谢这样不期而遇 当我从你眼中发现我已是
陌生人了 我已是 陌生人
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Janelle once asked me about my poems
should they be attributed to my name
but i think words belong to the public realms
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